22 and raring to go aren't you?? -the world asked me one day , but my answer came only with certain delay.
Yes i am , i said but in a very apprehensive , scared yet fearlessly hopeful way ..... fearing a bigtime change to face in life ..
It is at such time i wish for an escape from reality ..from life ..from everything thats good and bad.
The uncertainty, the sudden cluelesslesness of where i am going ..what i seek in life grips me..
And I wonder ,..I wonder..What if ?
What if i fail to be ..all that the world expects of me..?
What if i fail to be ..all that i expect to be...?
Will i be able to look myself in the mirror ..?
Will i be able to laugh it through..?
Will i be the queen of my dreams ?
Will i not be happy and ready for a flight ?
I know i will..with help from you i will ?
As i face my fears ..my apprehensions..?
The naked face of me in the mirror..?
I just dream a lilttle dream of me and my loved ones happy..?
Ohh what a wonderful world it will be..?
But then with no blacks what good is the white
So let your will be the will to rule my life
For now help me through one day at a time...
For i am but a bit LOST for now.....
4 comments:
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Lost...arent we all are??? Raring to leave the cosy shelter of home and live out the big bad world. To experience life to the fullest, isn't that what we want??? Reading this post...Im speechless...coz you expressed exactly what was going through my head.
There is a quaint excitement about finally being able to step into this world, but somewhere deep inside an apprehension exists.
Well written, hope to see more likewise.
Man don't we all known what ur talking abt! You're talking abt 22? I'm feeling like that and 23 is just around the corner for me! Anyhow very nicely expressed. I especially found that line interesting that one wants to run away from both the good and the bad...sometimes we just want to abandon all responsibility for our lives don't we? and i dont really mean that negatively....i just think its a part of life and shud be taken in the right spirit...sooner or later a direction will emerge....and while we struggle with that uncertainty we shud also learn to live wid it and even accept it and not let it pull us down....if what i said makes any sense!
Thanks Subhra....
I guess its the age...the feelings and expereinces, apprehensions are mostly of a mutual kind..
phewww!! guess am getting old :-p..lolzzz!!
What the heck so i better just LIVE it for now..., coz the best part is i have a blog for now whihc bears with all my philosophical vent outs ... & my friends can breathe hoping for some relief ..;-)
Hoping to write more too..
keep visiting..
@ Thanks Surbhi..
yupss you totally made sense...when i read it now even i feel the same..written in a thoughtful moment it really did mean whatever it says..
But then its not a permanent state you move on..and thats the beauty of life. we all take the good with a slight pinch of bad..and thats why life is loved as its not all diabetic or boring ..
But a Life we love to live..;-)
Now i am begining to wonder if i make sense ..do i?
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