Its been 5 months and 3 days , I haven't come writing anyting here...or rather even visitng for that matter. Yea yea..was kinda enjoying being a busy bee..:-P

But the recent happennings( blats ) in Mumbai kind of jolted me ..I felt like screaming and telling the world enough...is enough.

Yet shocked at the cruelty and brutality of human kind on one side and its suffering on the other. There seems to be a thin line between right and wrong of whats happening and what needs to be done.....

What can make it right..more importantly WHO will make it right? .

I believ yet again in My Nation and its people and their strength and courage of character to stand up in being pulled down . I belive in ME , I belive in You . I believe we all have what it takes to make a difference....and We will. And we will inspire the world.....

Its a such a blessing wheh you find yourself runninng out of ideas to blog and there you get TAGGED..;-)

....So as a rule I should answer these and pass it forward....

1) Last Movie that you Saw :Jodha Akbar (yes mummified my fisrt day first show days)

2) What book are you reading??

3) Favourite Board Game? ohhh difficult

4) Favourite Magazine? Reader's Digest( does it count)

5) Favourite Smells ? I got a defected nose...

6) Worst feeling in the World? Failing

7) What is the first thing you think of when u wake?? Nothing just ZZZzzzzZZzz...

O9) Favourite FastFood Place? Yummmiest thing ..Burger tikki (north camp)

10) Future Child's Name ?? Let me grow up first...

11) Finish the statement---'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D'....lots of things ..travel the world for one.....

12) Do you drive fast? DO NOT..:p( dn't drive for that matter..)

13) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I tried ..found myself to be allergic

14) Storms Cool or Scary? Scarrryyyyy.....

15) What was your first car?? Hyundai Santro

16) Favourite Drink? hmm..sweet n chilled

17) Finish the Statement-IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD....travel all the places, learn all kinds of music, ....scubadiving, mountain climbing, hiking in alaska...

18) Do you eat the stems on broccolo?? BIG NO..

19)If you could dye your hair any other colour what would your choice be?? Burgundi/Red

20)Name all the different cities/towns u have lived in? Prabha Devi , Pala , Thodupuzha , Ludhiana , Shimla, Ghaziabad

21) Favourite sports to watch?? Cricket, Football , Tennis

22)One thing about nice about the person who sent this to you ? ..yet to know but blogs nice..

23)Whats under your bed?? ....

24)Would your like to be born as yourself again ?? ..am yet to find a perfect person or life which isn't even a lil bit boring ..so ya ME anyday ..;)

25)Morning person or night owl?? ( K) night(ed) Rockssstar...

26)Over easy or sunny side up?? am confusedd..!!!

27) Favourite Place to Relax? my bed..or a quite beach

28)Favourite Pie? choco pie

29)Favourite Ice Cream Flavour? choch vanilla

30)Of all the people you have tagged , who is the most likely to respond first? Haven't tagged yet .:D

Officially Psyched..

a story of to be or not to be............

COMING SOON...

whats on my mind right now is ,...umm something like this i guess

...bring on the rain and bring on the thunder what made you think i wasn't prepared ? cause let me tell ya i am .

I believe and will always continue to belive there's always good at the end of the tunnel . The trip down may be long but its worth the happy ending...coz good things happen to good people and i would like to belive am not that bad after all.

(wat say mr. god..hi hi hi!! ;)

Life ...by jove has always been interestingly eventful and adventurous for us and it keeps going mannn... meant to keep us on our toes ??

..this is one of a kind life i got

somthin happened on 28th of this month, that made me question my priorities in life. The things that i chase ..have always chased in life and what real meaning they hold. I guess that way its good to have speed breakers here and there in your life , gives you time from that eternal chase to look around and see if what your are running for is what you want most or do you already need all that you could ever have wanted.

my answer....

Maybe I am not that typical gurl....

who cud answer the questions that so ur mind does fill

who love and her lover does wait...

For i am just enjoying and living rather making my fate

so u better ask somone who's ready to give your questions a shot..

or has already fallen for you in nights of thought

for maybe your fate's awaiting its turn with you.

u know the answer right .....with me its always a miss

u here to live and be friends

..so be the same till life's magic does run

will be your accomplice in finding your dream princess

for frendship is better than anything that you cud ever do justice..
Sign off for now..

The Queen ( Anju)

mera yeh bawara mann....

I saw the movie Hazaron Khwaisehin again in recent times..made me fall in love again with the thoughts reflected and talked about..what beauty and simplicity in expressing complications i could never seem to put into words. Whats more , some recents events of my life have made me more respectful of the same . The songs from the movie and their lyrics give goosebumps evertyime i listen.

I wonder if its the same for everyone, but i keep feeling ..Goshh that me..

its written for me , about me.Takes me back to a time in my life i yearn to forget and yet know will remember forever ..what irony !!..

And this is how it feels explaining my life right now...

"..hmm me and my bawara mann on a journey to discover those dreams........for there are but hazaron n more khwaisheun this tiny heart holds.."

..Hazaaron Khwaishein Aisi ke har Khwaish pe dum nikle,bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle

Mohabbat mein nahi hai farq jeene aur marne ka,usii ko dekh kar jeete hain jis kaafir pe dam nikle ..

a nostalgic reflect..

I wonder what next day in day out..
this feild and project tension is gettin to me at times, i do nothing yet freak my tiny head off with worries .
The thoutgh of the life beyond this fun , studnet ..college life is weird...infact something that hasn't sunk in even now.
The diffenrent people i have met , the thing i learned will always be with me... Tru it hasn't been the most amazin of journeys, emeshed with its share of turns and twist like any bollywood potboiler from in and out depressive thouts to trips whihc were truly out of the world fun.
Having said that ..i think its more to do with nostalgia of these journey coming to an end..that one begins to see all the gud .The fear of unknown that i carry with me and also the thought "
will we always think abt today like we think abt now..???
will thoughts of this present time bring in more smiles to think of sometime in future...or will it all be a very silly phase one's glad to be over with ?"
fArewell's on in 3 days and the horrible day i had today made me think i dun wanna go...(fisrt time i felt i wanna miss sumthing like this..:) but then i asked myself the question as asked by my frend's bro.."think will you remember thes projects or fields more , or the people and times spent hanging out.." .My choices will determine that i guess..
(anywys for now i just hope to survive these submissions , the craziness, the depression , the stress and still be alive & kicking)
..A soulful journey thru this passage of time ...it will pass i gues even this phase but the question stil lingers on of memory , of ryts n wrngs n emotions most of all
for time never holds stil nor does one's mind jumping up and down with thoughts

INDIA IN 1835...take a read

Did they succeed in breaking the backbone of this nation..???

I saw the movie "In Her Shoes " recently, an emotionally tuned flick sprinkled with realitybites of life and closest relationships . Just made me think about me and my sister , the relationship we share,between most sisters for that matter..:-). Anyways the best part for me is the two amazingly beautiful poems which evoke great meaning and emotions, kinda like conveying the whole essence of the story more than anything else in the movie. Just an insight to the power of words and more so poetry written in times of great emotionally bounded states . So anyhow here's one of the poems from the movie now very much a part of my all time favourites collection .
So cheers to Elizabeth Bishop's masterpiece ..that everyone could connect to at some point in their life ,coz this "art of losing " is not so alien afterall....

ONE ART
The art of losing isn’t hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother’s watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster.
–Even losing you (the joking voice,

a gestureI love) I shan’t have lied. It’s evident
the art of losing’s not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

TO LIVE /LOVE THE CHOICES IN LIFE I WONDER

If life is all about making choices i did... and i believe i have ,
Now its time now for me and you to let each other go
Time to let me leave and for you to just say one last time .." oh hoo"
I have made a choice to live ..to not look back and say i wish...

I agree I chose the roads i have travelled by
And each in someway has had a purpose of moulding me in life's realities i sigh
I promised myself not to look back
...coz each moment good and bad was best lived in its times..

For like some smart guy once said(i hate that guy :-P ).

All good things must come to an end ...

But for what its worth it was worth all the while.....

...It was a time truly well lived.

And then sudden glimpse of the future i saw
..a huge cloud of Hope floating me by ..
"and there begins another saga .." -with a chuckle i said

of my hopes and dreams and a fly to the sky of my will.

The Queen says ciao now...;-)

Coz Sometimes a picture speaks a thousand words...

...................to live and more so to love is not so easy as one would wishfully think
The greatest thing no doubt ..yet the most complicated matter of our sweet human hearts...
it isn't just a simple love at fisrt sight or the story of many happily everafters but the TRUE love comes in real life ..in simple times of day in day out...

Now that is some food for thought......live it and LOVE it..

Happy Lohri Guys !!...

Happy Lohri Guys!!...
Guess what just 2 mins back I was just sitting in the cots laid out in our campus lawns and enjoying the bonfire warmth admist delhi's chilly winter air .....
.....surrounded by family and friends alike and eating up on yummy peanuts , rabri ,gajak comboss...
Woo!!! mann and all my heart echoed was..I just LOVVEE this country..;-)
Lemme explain...a simple thot struck me while i sat there looking at people enjoying the love in the air ..made me so happy that i was born here not in the US OF A.. woopsie or even Mr. UK
..
Coz as I wondered to myself .."would i find somthing so special and simple anywhere in the world??".My mind answered in an impulse "NO"...and i was reminded of Govinda dood's song...
THISSSSSS HAPPENS ONLY IN INDIA..and no prizes for guesss i for sure love India..;-)
(touchwud... hope it rocks like this forevr and stops chasing only the depressing materialistic european ways to life and not the gud ones )
I WUD UNDERSTAND IF U ENVY ME FOR I WAS BORN HERE ..
For i have famliy , love,values and culture which all the world keeps craving for
..and no money in the world could buy
For like the master card ad says ..Some things in life like such moments are priceless for everything else there's a master card or even mr. cash..:-P would do i guess..

NOTE: For those of you who don't know this festival is a special one celebrated acroos north india and punjab especially. A festival that has no religious significance but holds a great social significance . A day celebrated as a day of imparting social love to one and all ..aprt from marking the harvesting season in Punjab and the end of the winter season..(i luv winters though..:(..sad they have to say bye bye..)

to Live like its heaven on earth....

...just somthing that feels so right for me this moment and i wanted to share with all ..;-)

Justice of the ICC kind or Is it the Dimplomatic kind ??..;-)..

Well ,well ...i never expected much from the whole hoopla but atleast Bucknor darling goes for a toss..:-P ..as news channels repoted with a breaking news caption citing ..."humari jeet"..
"ICC ko jhukna pada" . I wonder where the "jhuko" part came from coz Mr Speed seems like a very shrewd guy just trying to hand it out in a diplomatic manner. Do we understand this ..i think "Yes" most of us do..but then we Indians are an understanding lot now aren't we..:-P
he he..!! yes sure all the pun in the world intended here if u didn't get it.

However one thing is for sure that everyone's happy we as a nation raised our voices to save our honor and for the first time in cricket history an umpire assigned to the series has been taken out..yipeeee!!. I wish Mr Benson was left out too but i guess u can't expect that much to happen.
I mean no one (officials involved sp.) wants to aggravate the situation between these two cricketing giants , it could go even more ugly between two nations on the whole. So the diplomatic stance of justice ..coz ideally this last match should be annulled .
However , also like somone suggested to me we don't wanna set a precedent either for future ..that may set patterns for matches to be cancelled like this.

And as for BCCI and ICC making statements on bhaji being able to play the test at Perth ..., i thoughtt that he would anyways till the final verdict goes out right..:-O.

What can one do when it all looks like a game of money and people in power who don't wanna loose out on any part of it. Everyone just trying to calm things by throwing out people like Bucknor to distract people coz ultimately am sure things aren't gonna change much . Its a sad face of corruption and BCCI at the top of it. I wonder what would be the future for Bhaji

So much for justice ha.."Such is Life" as my friend smriti buggingly keeps repeating you gotta keep peace and you gotta be happy..;-)
So look at it this way the nation comes together , the team comes together for its honor and for now atleast Mr Bucknor is OUT .

LETS WAIT AND WATCH...

Update: This morning i woke up to news of tv channels reporting the hosting of emergency meeting at BCCI chief Pawar's house .

Yippee..,It seems finally Indian team decided to put their foot down and say No More taking rubbish.., We want some answers like... for starters What explanations are there to Australian witnesses being considered right in comparison to Indian players during trial ..

The Aussie players have gone beyond doubt to explicitly showtheir double standards concerning whats black and whats white as per their personal convenience. But the cause of amusement is the fact that they are being backed up by people like Mike Procter while Indian team did not even have their board to fight for untill they made an issue.

Well ,whatever the case am happy that atleast the Indian team tried to start somthin by boycotting the practice match and shaking the board out of its slumber to atleast take some action or atleast pretend to do so :-P

For as BCCI secretary Niranjan Shah said later today -

"..the game of cricket is paramount but so too is the honour of the Indian team and for that matter every Indian..."

Indian Cricket Team Umpired out for loss:

Today is a sad day for cricket as a sport i would say . Injustice being handed out to indian pplayers during this australian tour in full amounts...
wrong umpire decisions, wrong accusations..??? making the players feel helpless
and the spineless BCCI.. SEEMS TO CARE FOR NOTHING BUT ITSELF AND ITS WROLDCUP dreams.....not bothering the humiliation being handed over to indian players.
All boils down to corruption ..grrr but point being unless our own people fight for our team, how would the world respect them..

I am not trying to be melodramtic at any point but this is how i feel ...it felt like everything was working to whims and fancies of one team and all by unfair means i must add. Being handed out unfair decisions even on the final day was tooooooooooo much to bear . I wonder if it was all about making Aussies have their record 16 test win thingie. I mean think of it Dravid and then Ganguly both were handed out wrong decisions ...Fine mistakes do happen , umpires can't be accountable to make perfect decisions all the time but Helooo??
* firstly don't make the decisions when you aren't SURE.., hand it to third umpire
*And secondly , the amount of wrong umpire decisions plus the fact that all were against just one team mostly is a little too much of co- incidence to handle.
who can say india couldn't have won ..had these two seniors players been on the crease..???.And then bhaji being charged for racist remarks when it was his words against the aussie lot..??

What the hell is going on ..and why is BCCI letting players take all this shit?? wasn't it enough for him to be pushed off stage by ricky ponting during his indian stay..?? . I feel disturbed moreso knowiing that if we can't stand up to fairness in a sport we fund and rule by all means ..what chance do we have anywhere else??

I really wish Sharad Pawar would for once forget his ICCI chairman dreams and show some spine and fight the cause..
and greatest of all i wish the players come together and boycott the whole thing till they are pacified with justice . Grrrr Coz it feels like the right time to let Aussies know we' ain't no fools..if thatS what you consider our playing the game in right spirit..

Wonderous Crossroads of Life

22 and raring to go aren't you?? -the world asked me one day , but my answer came only with certain delay.

Yes i am , i said but in a very apprehensive , scared yet fearlessly hopeful way ..... fearing a bigtime change to face in life ..

It is at such time i wish for an escape from reality ..from life ..from everything thats good and bad.

The uncertainty, the sudden cluelesslesness of where i am going ..what i seek in life grips me..

And I wonder ,..I wonder..What if ?

What if i fail to be ..all that the world expects of me..?

What if i fail to be ..all that i expect to be...?

Will i be able to look myself in the mirror ..?

Will i be able to laugh it through..?

Will i be the queen of my dreams ?

Will i not be happy and ready for a flight ?

I know i will..with help from you i will ?

As i face my fears ..my apprehensions..?

The naked face of me in the mirror..?

I just dream a lilttle dream of me and my loved ones happy..?

Ohh what a wonderful world it will be..?

But then with no blacks what good is the white

So let your will be the will to rule my life

For now help me through one day at a time...

For i am but a bit LOST for now.....